words from the heart (haiga + haibun)

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Handcrafted by Alain Johnson, Clinical Director

It is difficult to put into words what my heart feels but perhaps with images and a few haiku I may manage to give a glimpse of le moi à l’interieur.

Changing careers in 2000 was not only a choice but a dream for me. Accepting this position was a privilege not a duty. Helping those who find the courage to reach out is a joy. Hearing disclosures of suffering is an honour which I embrace each day with overwhelming love and humility.

I’ve been privileged growing up swaddled in love and compassion which gave me the resilience in times of adversity. Too many have never had this advantage in life.

On Thursday, I was showered with well wishes and compliments…festive balloons and hand crafted candles announcing my 15 years working at a national youth line. And yet, I am the one to be thankful for doing what I love best.

My colleagues warmed my heart with such sweetness and one special person wanted to show her sentiments by giving me a beautiful bouquet of fresh cut flowers that touched me more than she knows.

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Bouquet from Stephanie Julien-Gaudry

I never felt so close to my colleagues as this day and grateful to be part of such a great team of loving and caring counsellors.  I know how I have always felt but have never realized how I may be perceived by others and truly this is humbling.

july 9 red roses

red roses
spilling fragrance
bleeding hearts
exuding sweetness
hope restored

july 9 yellow daisies

blonde petals
swell of golden glow
souls inspire

july 9 white daisy

unsullied
yet, made of substance
with purest intent

(c) Tournesol’15

Old straw hat (haibun)

The morning after la fête de la St-Jean, waves roll debris on wet sand;  seagulls screech for revellers’ leftoversr. Walking on wet sand, she limps to a bench and watches the sun break through the clouds, remembering dancing around le feu de la St-Jean with him.

straw hat shields
greeting new dawn
weathered skin

(c) Tournesol’15

Carpe Diem #773 Mugiwara boushi (straw hat)

nature  (haiga)

casualty of rainstorm

sudden cloudburst
innocence surrenders
wind’s casualty

When she was little, she would climb up into the tree with her sister and her cousin. They would imagine the branches had mini bananas.

helicopter tree

such wonder
visions of faraway lands
child’s play
giraffes and elephants
and banana trees

white rose

morning sun
beams on nature’s gifts
fragrance grins

(c) Tournesol ’15

Written for:  http://chevrefeuillescarpediem.blogspot.ca/2015/07/carpe-diem-special-155-adjeis-second.html

when Haiku and I first met (haibun)

I know I am too late for this prompt as I have been off the blogosphere lately, yet, I enjoyed a post written by Georgia at Bastet who completed this prompt. Now this blog at Bastetandsekhmet is a great blog to visit. This is one blog I never tire reading the depth of many of her poems, the humour in her choka and the authenticity in her friendship.

Our host, Chèvrefeuille, and mentor here posted a narrative along with a breathtaking series of haiku on honeysuckles (which is chèvrefeuille in French, by the way) entitled “How it all started” In response to this post, Georgia wrote about her love of haiku and tanka, which inspired me to write this.

I was first drawn to haiku to post with a photo I had taken of nature and sunsets. I found the image spoke one language and the haiku whispered in the language of the unconscious. Looking back to my very first haiku or haiga (haiku written within an image) I was surprised to see my first was in October 2013; Tanka was a form I noticed several poets used to make a statement…brief, to the point and usually quite poignant…I am trying to master this better but am still devoted to improving my haiku.
shortcut which is through a thicket of odd trees, bushes and wild flowers. This moment truly blessed me minutes before I started my shift.

chasing butterflies

chasing butterflies
daisies and buttercups trip
searching for nectar

I am blessed with a family or classroom with dedicated, talented and so diverse in writing this form. I think I started a good time in my personal life as well as I process day to day life, I grow in the essence of their creative genius.

I love sunrise and sunsets but usually I get to bed so late it is just pre-dawn, so I hear the first chirping of birds. I have chased sunsets moreso in the past twenty years.

There is not one season that we cannot find moments to capture a moment, hold it long enough to write three lines. Yet, I have to say that I am not only inspired but excited during springtime

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The river breeze
skims through Ovid’s poem
scent of lilacs

I don’t know if it is because I am a water sigh or that I was raised by a river but I do love writing about water…it is my place of solace as much as sunsets soothe me, water replenishes the soul.

This was written by the river where I grew up:

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By the river
painful secrets trickle
water filled with tears

This was an excellent exercise in reviewing old haiku…I had not realized how many I had accumulated in the past year. I will end with one of many I have written on sunsets. This photo was taken on the rooftop at work in Montreal.

sunset double haiga

Final brush strokes
transforms hues on canvas
last slow breath

last slow breath
at one with the heavens
life cycles

Haibun seems to be my favoured style without realizing it was haibun…I saw it as a brief journal entry completed with a poignant thought in the form of haiku to end my narrative.

Now all of these were before I discovered Bastet who told such lovely stories through her wide range of forms of poetry…but I was intrigued with her prompts at Carpe Diem. Since then I learned there was more to the forms than counting syllables…oh my, so much more!

What I love about haiku is how we give life, purpose and meaning to nature, birds, insects (little critters)…respecting each and every living thing.

This past year I have been grieving and find solace in writing haiku for it is part of the life cycle…death is part of our lives always. I find haiku is a nice form to include very subtle underlying emotions which for the reader my not be too heavy but for the writer is such a release.

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murky waters of despair haiga

embracing cascades
spilling into dark waters,
release her despair

seeking refuge  from despair Haigaseeking refuge
leans over the footbridge,
faith holds her back

And what better way than to use metaphors and with nature they are in abundance…

sur sa pierre tombale
verse des larmes pour son père
le corbeau muet

vent doux souffle
écoute ces paroles d’un être cher
le silence cri

Working fulltime and commuting by public transit, I used moments each day to write what I see and feel. One day I had to stop to remove a stone in my shoe and this is what I saw

(tanka)

Pebble in my show
Queen bee hunts sweet nectar
whilted petals weep
whipped by wind and rain
casualties of nature

When I get off the Métro, I have to walk a short distance and a

(c) Tournesol ’15

Written in response to http://chevrefeuillescarpediem.blogspot.it/2015/06/carpe-diem-utabukuro-3-how-it-all.html

butterfly wing (haibun)

Butterfly tear by Scorpiutza Watch Traditional Art / Drawings / Other©2009-2015 Scorpiutza (Deviantart)

She looked out to the river. The rumbling rapids helped to quiet her pulse. She sat crossed legged on the flat stones and gave a child’s bucket to her grandson to fill  and water the lilies on the shore. Back and forth he repeated the dunking; sauntering to the shore, splashing water on the bed of lilies. Suddenly, the little guy asked , “Why are you crying, Nana?” He pointed to a teardrop slipping down her cheek. She looked stunned, having been in another world for a few seconds, “Oh, I’m not crying, sweetheart, I was daydreaming about butterflies.”

Butterfly wings
 caress her cheek
banished tear

© Tournesol’15

Carpe Diem “butterflies”

fazing of the night (haibun)

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© Clr’15

She looks out the window, waiting for daylight. Birds bid her a good morning in the darkness of the night still, fazing ever slowly. She turns to look at her mistress and waits for a sign, then nuzzles on her pillow and  tries to catch some sleep in the quiet dim of night.

birds chirping

breakfast conference

pre-dawn call

© Tournesol’15

all one and the same (haibun)

Awakened by the lovely sound of birds chirping made her hope it might be sunny today.  It is! Her friend meows in protest for having shut her bedroom door earlier in the morning.  She chatters away expressing her discontent with a hint of hope to be stroked, fed and stroked some more.

The sky is a darker blue than most seasons…not quite cobalt but close with pearly billows drifting by accentuating the hues of this majestic sky.

sea of blue above
islands shaped in pearly greys
beg my surrender

She had moved her laptop in the living room so she could watch a movie last night and fires it up always curious to see the haiku prompt of the day at Carpe Diem Haiku kai.   In the past few months she has not been as regular contributing and she misses her haijin family.  Yesterday she took the time to visit a few siblings and cousins homes around the world in the blogosphere.

Her thoughts wander to a friend who is in San Ramon today and will be seeing Amma at her retreat. How she misses her warm and healing embrace.  Some call her a guru, others call her a hugging saint…she feels she is all of these and more. Her healing touch, her soothing smile, her words of wisdom and mostly her way of living by loving, giving tirelessly to humanity makes her heart swell.   Amma has a way of looking at you and making you see the beauty within. How she does it is a mystery or is it?  She does not preach laws but models compassion and asks us to see the light we all have within.

Her mind drifts off to sounds of various bhjans songs and the tabla drumming to her heartbeat.  Its echo makes her feel the divine beauty reflected from within.   So many instruments mimic nature and human sounds;  her Celtic spirit awakens with strings,  flutes and drums that soften her heart.  Drum circles come to mind and First Nations People who have become her conscious, reminding her to be good to Mother Earth.

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She looks at her mala beads and remembers hearing Amma say last year, “We are all beads strung on the same string of love.”   She tries to remember this daily.  The image of several homeless people who sit along her path to work come to mind.   Some speak French, English, Créole, Arabic or Spanish but she knows they all understand the same language…compassion.

sound of the drum
listen to the heart beat
all, one and the same

© Tournesol’15/11/14

Carpe Diem Extra Shaman

freeloading bees (haibun)

Honey bees congregate on top of frames. They get the most buzz, but aren't the only pollinators dying off.
© National Post

In an era where we fear for the livelihood of bees and butterflies, here is a story of a home in Cambridge, Ontario where a colony of honey bees took residence in their home. The homeowners were not concerned about the presence of bees but worried about the fire hazard with honey dripping on electric wires and such. I love this story!

Tireless bees
strange bedfellows
wrapped in honey

 © Tournesol’15

Credits:

CBC NEWS | Jun 30, 2015 | 2:44  50,000 freeloading honeybees get the boot

Hive removed from Cambridge, Ont., home, would have grown to about 80,000 bees in a month, says beekeeper Dave Schuitt

a single rose (haiga)

single rose

a single rose
rests on her gravestone
thorn in my heart

No more roses will be bought for her birthday …It was always roses that stirred her memory…her sense of smell awakened by the fragrance every time. But in a few days Mother’s ashes will finally be laid to rest next to her husband…the true love of her life.,, looking forward to this reunion.

rose by his side
no thorns can keep them apart
together at last

© Tournesol ’15

Written for Haiku Horizons Thorn

welcome warmth (haibun)

almost naked tree

Nothing nicer than a little break with Indian Summer just before the long cold months ahead. The trees are bare, the parks are empty, children back in school all day now.   She sits on the park bench to soak up the warm sun with her parka on her lap.

Inhales quiet
sunshine winking
almost naked trees

© Tournesol’15

http://chevrefeuillescarpediem.blogspot.ca/2015/06/carpe-diem-time-machine-10-indian.html