like losing a limb over the years, she still limps mourning her lost son (c) Tournesol '24/01.2021 Daily Moments - changed forever Jan 24 2021
Category: Senryû
9 months later…(troiku) Daily Moments Dec. 18 2020
hearing the murmur
interrupt my worry mind
from my laptop
hearing the murmur
soft moans sounding like snores
my big fat cat
interrupt my worry mind
blare of the condo buzzer
Amazon delivery
from my laptop
sixty faces staring into space
another Zoom meeting
© Tournesol ‘2020/12/18
Daily Moments – 9 months later – Troiku
the three C’s (haibun)

One can observe here and there in their neighbourhoods how humans have adjusted to their pandemic reality…
connecting
respecting closeness
with compassion
© Tournesol’2020/08/01
Corona homes (senryu)
Framed walls
Mementos telling stories
home sweet home

Vintage table
Drop leaf holding laptop
Home office transformed
Spare room
Filled with books
No room for guests
(C) Tournesol ‘20/05/23

mother’s presence
A place called home
Mid century dreams
(C) Tournesol ‘20/05/23
Day 54 May 7/20 No Exits (troiku)

where’ve they all gone
tumbling early in the morn
hollow echoes
where’ve they all gone
absent footsteps
abandoned stairwell
tumbling early in the morn
like clockwork
with purpose
hollow echoes
not so long ago
safely indoors
keeping satellites busy
friends and family reconnect
defend one and all
Mother Nature breathing life
Isolation saves

© Tournesol ‘20/05/07
Daily Moments – May 7 2020 No Exits Troiku
Daily moments – Day 48 Meal break (haibun)
During her lunch break she wanted to go out for a walk but there were too many people walking the street. Some two by two, a teen on roller blades and cyclist in shorts. Resigning to taking the garbage out, she felt she might soak up the sun for a few minutes. When she walked out her heart skipped a beat…”No, don’t close the gate yet, I need to bring mine”…standing at 5 metres from them she felt her heart swell…
finally spring
showing its warmth
sun beaming
finally spring
forced her out
a brief moment
showing its warmth
two ladies by the dumpster
excites her
sun beaming
halos circle their heads
smiling at me
She is not alone. That is what the isolation makes you feel as if you are alone feeling what feel. The women both nodded that they had good days and bad days. Yes!! It was such a relief to speak to live women close to her age …we share the love for our offspring, the worry, the longing. And even though it is a sad reality, she walked back to her unit with a lighter foot.
she’s okay
speaking to live humans in person
sighs
© Tournesol 2020/04/29
Daily moments – Day 48 Meal break (haibun)
Day 42 rock, paper, scissors (haibun) Apr 24, 2020
So many people were out; some looked content others look serious and walked with purpose. A few only exposed their eyes.
It appeared chilly since many were still wearing wool tuques and scarves. At least in our winters and spring here we can lift a scarf over our mouth and nose without it looking out of place…too much. She is debating whether she should go out or not. She looks from her balcony wringing her dry hands like an old scared woman.
Strangers on her street
Face masks, the new spring fashion
peeks from her window
trying to catch up
youngster pedals with a purpose
father in slow motion
sanitizers flow
exhaustion showers over her
toxins linger
(c) Tournesol ‘2020/04/24 Daily Moments Day 42
Letting go (haibun) daily moments april 19 2020

Watching a stand up comic she bursts out laughing. It is such a wonderful distraction these days. The third comic show, she starts weeping and doesn’t know why…or does she?
Salty tears
Drawing paths on wrinkled cheeks
Laugh therapy
Laugh therapy
coming from a secret place
finally letting go
© Tournesol ‘2020-04-19
Daily Moments – letting go
Dear Emma April 18 2020 ~ Haibun
Tick tock
Toss and turn
Mind won’t shut off!
May as well stay up and drop when I can no longer stay awake. It’s Saturday today…soon the sun will come up. I went for a teeny tiny walk last night after I brought the garbage out. It was after nine and no one was on the street except for one young man busy talking on his phone. I just walked up and down my street twice, staying within my close quarters since I had not brought my cane or walking stick and you just never know when that knee will give way, so it came out to 2km. I’m pleased with that. I think I will continue walking at that time each night. Granted I would love to soak up the sun in the daytime but with the cool weather we’ve been having, wind comes along with the sunny skies and evenings it just seems calmer and feels warmer.
I surfed the net a bit to see how the world was coping…I found an interesting segment from France covered byFrance 24which is aired weekly. Oh my, to see the drones the police are using to check up on people who are not abiding with social distancing!!! That is pretty awesome actually but like one woman cyclist with her two children commented, it does feel futuristic and one wonders if you are doing to get attacked by the drones. It’s a great idea actually and saves a lot of manpower so police can also be available for emergencies rather than patrolling street by street, park after park.
I noticed our police patrol Easter Sunday. Good thing they came by a few hours after this couple rendezvoused in front of my building. He brought her a gift and stretched out his arm to hand it to her. Then they spoke briefly a good two metres apart. She had leggings and a nice long sweater hanging off one shoulder and four inch heels!! I kid you not! It was so adorable to see them. They looked in their late thirty’s or mid forty’s. I found it so romantic! Hey, I don’t get to see much these days, so this was a real life treat And I even wrote about it on my an Easter datealong with a haiku on Sunday.

I ordered watercolours and paper this week. I am kicking myself for having given all my paints, crayons and artsy things when I moved here. Who knew I would have so much time on my hands that I could relax trying to paint? I have never really painted with watercolours except fooling around with my grandson and when I was a kid but lately I found a few Youtubers who explain it well and I want to try. My goal is to make greeting cards, just for fun and maybe even create lovely haiga with my artwork. So far, I have only done haiga with my photos but it would be a nice change. If I don’t succeed at least I will have practiced an art form that relaxes me.
Years ago I had to take some art courses to be accepted in an Art Therapy class at my university. So I took 24 lessons in oil painting. I did not really find I did anything pretty but every week those three hours went by like ten minutes.
It’s 5:30 and I’m not sure I will be able to stay up until the sun comes up. My eyes are getting a bit heavy (finally). I think I will have breakfast so hunger will not wake me up at 8am and I can sleep in as late as I want. Yes, that is a great idea!
Thanks for listening, Emma. There are not many people I can talk their ear off at this time and you are such a great listener.
Night sounds
Hum of the fridge
The old cat snores
© Tournesol ‘2020-04-18
April 17 2020 ~video chats rescue ~ haibun

Ah if only I could disconnect like my feline friends. I hear one snore softly. I felt pumped when I first woke up and seeing the sunny skies. The sun was so warm, the bedroom temperatures went up I had to open the windows. And then I watched the news…
bursts of energy
sun beams through my window
lifting spirits
dark clouds
menacing those light blue skies
hold uncertainty
emotions
riding the roller coaster
little engine doubts
I think I can, I know I can
because I have a plan
there is no shame
in reaching out
call out their name
so comforting
a face smiling back at me
YOU, inside my screen!
Feeling pumped again after a nice video chat with my son and daugther in law…yes, I definitely can get through these times.
© Tournesol ‘2020/04/17 Daily moments






