Miss you, Mom

Colombe (Bette) Daudelin
June 22, 1926-Dec 2, 2014

reminiscing
that infectious laugh
scent of Givenchy
passionately pinching cheeks
whispering, “Love you darling”

se souvenir
ce rire contagieux
parfum de Givenchy
pincement passionné des joues
chuchoter, “Je t’aime ma chérie”

© Tournesol ‘21/05/10/09

joys remembered… (haibun)

November often is filled with grey skies, fallen leaves and cold rain that often turns to snow.  It is a time of transition between cool to cold, between vibrance versus calm and rest.  Mother Earth needs a rest and will wrap us soon with a white  blanket…Some people are excited for the holidays but many feel melancholy, missing loved ones far away or no longer here.   Some are living in a past that is missed, others look forward to the joys of holiday gatherings, good food and children’s eyes twinkling with excitement.

At my age, I’ve been blessed with archives of many joys and here are just a few…

©Clr’17/11/27

Sitting by the riverside, waiting for the sun to set

willows weep with joy
last sights of nature’s beauty
sun dips below
silent nestlings tucked in
robin does her last round

sunset
dips beneath blue azure
fluid hues of joy

So many joys to share…moments in time linger in my memory.

The first time you learn you are pregnant after years of trying. I remember not believing the pharmacist and asked him to write it down on the receipt to show my husband. My legs were shaking so much, giggling nervously  and I could not drive for a good fifteen minutes.

I remember thechallenges of being a first time homeowner. One morning, my husband had to call the contractor for help when our basement was flooded.  I just kept smiling…Iwas in my own world because I felt my baby move in my belly for the very first time.

Hearing the crunch underfoot walking on that first snowfall.  Making snow angels and tasting snowflakes on my tongue.  Hearing my grandson giggle when I slipped and fell in the snow.  Hearing my grand-daughter respond to my ”Te amo”…with ”Mucho mucho!”…a joy that makes the heart melt with so much love.

Seeing my grandchildren wave and smile at me on video chat!! Even technology can bring me joy!

The first time my child says, “Mummy”
My adult child that says“I love you, Mom!”
Grandchildren saying, “I love you Nana!”

A struggling youth in such pain
ends his call with me,  “You give me hope”

Toddler walking barefoot on the grass for the first time, lifting his foot because it tickles.

night unveils new dawn
dewdrops on soft petals
sun kissed skies

Memories transport me to another time…

sitting on a park bench
giggling children
joy painted on their lips

sitting on a park bench
swallows chirp
telling stories

giggling children
skipping, running joyfully
tag you’re it

joy painted on their lips
brings new life to any day
how the spirit glows!

Awakened Christmas moring discovering Santa’s surprise under the tree.  Eavesdropping from my bed, “But how did he know?!” my heart bathed in love, weeping tears of joy…

Carols echoing Adeste Fidele…such moments of delight! Yesterday’s joys, born again, I smile anew!

©Tournesol’16/11/2023

Adeste, fideles, laeti, triumphantes,
Venite, venite in Bethlehem:
Natum videte Regem Angelorum:
Venite adoremus, venite adoremus
Venite adoremus Dominum.
En grege relicto, humiles ad cunas,
vocatis pastores approperant.
Et nos ovanti gradu festinemus.
Venite adoremus, venite adoremus
Venite adoremus Dominum.
Aeterni Parentis splendorem aeternum,
Velatum sub carne videbimus
Deum Infantem, pannis involutum.
Venite adoremus, venite adoremus
Venite adoremus Dominum.
Pro nobis egenum et foeno cubantem,
Piis foveamus amplexibus:
Sic nos amantem quis nos redamaret?
Venite adoremus, venite adoremus
Venite adoremus Dominum.

busy minds  ~  haibun ~ Daily Moments , Sept 9 2023

It’s 3am and she cannot sleep…the mind just won’t shut UP! Drowning in too many emotions dredged from those thoughts, she finally gets up to make a cuppa and let her fingers translate the mind’s clutter….tap, tap, tap…the words fill the page…tap, tap, tap, her cup is almost empty…

tik tok tik tok

thoughts run on the hamster wheel

time never stops

© Tournesol 2023-09-09

summer delight haibun Daily Moments 2023 06 24

© Clr’16 stepping into neverland

Walking  in the rain today brought her back to yesteryear…floods of images and emotions….

scent of wet grass
faint sound of droplets
warm summer rain

warm summer rain
grass tickling tiny feet
echoes of laughter

echoes of laughter
sound of pure joy
children giggling

children giggling
watching from a rocking chair
a mother’s delight

© tournesol 2023-06-24 Daily Moments

Celebrating joy ~ Haibun ~ Daily Moments 2023-6-21

 

 

Today we celebrated National Indigenous Peoples Day which also falls on summer solstice. All day an the beginning of summer, the end of the school here in Quebec and the birth of her mother. On June 22nd, 1926, a lovely, smiling baby girl was born…she had curly locks and a contagious laugh. She brought joy to so many people and loved her children and grandchildren/great grandchildren more than life itself. And that says a lot. She had two open heart surgeries and 3 other heart procedures…she fought so hard to live. Where did she get the courage and strength? Surely her unrelenting faith as well as her love for her family. It is appropriate that she started her journey into this world during the summer solstice…the sun was her best friend.   Oh how she loved its glow and warmth!

 

She is missed but today her memory brings joy. Bonne Anniversaire, Colombe….Happy Birthday, Mom/Nanny.

 

Open your heart
letting in joy
Scent of sweet lilacs

Open your heart
Rustling leaves
Sound of laughter

Letting in joy
Swaddled in the warmth
Of summer

Scent of sweet lilacs
longest day of the year
Summer solstice

© Tournesol 2023-06-21

Good news – Haibun – Daily Moments June 18, 2023

(c) Clr-2018 San Diego

Nothing confirms more how valuable and loved a friend is to you until you spend weeks worrying for their life. And then the phone rings…

shoulders roll back
chest expanding wide…
sigh of relief

© Tournesol 18-06-2023

Insomnia (senryu)

one more sleepless night
mantra chanting, mindful breathing…
toss – turn – groan

crying over spilt milk
many moons ago
such a bitter taste

daybreak
already at four thirty!
eyelids get heavy.

eyelids closing
body acquiesces…
all except the brain

mindless chatter
time to get up for work
one more sleepless night

© Tournesol 2023-06-13  Daily Moments

Easter – Pâques (troiku – daily moments)


Spring is in the air
Awakens our inner child
Play, Love, Joy

Spring is in the air
Inviting 
new beginnings

Awakens our inner child
Rain or shine
Heart still skips with joy

Play - Love - Joy
An ageless mantra
For all

(c) Tournesol 2023-03-25




le printemps est dans l'air
éveille l’enfant intérieur
jouer, aimer, jouir

le printemps est dans l'air
séduisant
des nouveaux débuts

éveille l’enfant intérieur
ensoleillé ou pluvieux 
le cœur fait des sauts

jouer - aimer - jouir
un mantra
Pour tous·tes

© tournesol 2023-03-26

sporadic visit (Troibun) Daily Moments

How I miss her nudging me...those sporadic visits.  Going for a walk, I would feel the hints of a verse, a word...a perfect moment whispering to me.  My mind always wanders...so hard to be mindful because my eyes see one thing for a moment and then she takes over with an interesting narrative. A bike missing a wheel thrown carelessly beneath a balcony.  What if it was a kidnapping and the bike was thrown here from another town?  What if it was an accident and the biker had no ID, police still looking for John Doe?  What if...indeed!!  

 I miss holding an image in my heart f then allowing it to simmer for a day or two and turning it into a watercolour  of words, three brief lines that take your imagination on to a lovely journey. Other times it can be philosophical or spiritual but definitely, with a tasteful metaphor.  
 
Since the pandemic, rather than benefit from time during those moments if isolation... inspiration changed to a very scattered mind.  Words were mixed with fear but this morning there was a slight shift ... 
Softly whispers 
Welcoming lilt 
Brief rendezvous 

 Softly whispers 
Moment in time 
wades in my soul  

Welcoming lilt 
Holding my breath
Listening to her voice 

Brief rendezvous 
Still 
breathtaking 

(c) Tournesol 2023-03-05  Daily Moments

First snowfall – (troiku) daily moments

First snowfall Nov 16 2022

snowflakes
carpets forming
spreading joy

snowflakes
adorning
bare branches

white carpets forming
like white sheets on a stick
spreading peace

spreading joy
peace
no wars!

(c) Tournesol ‘2022-11-16